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IPhantomSilver
Lady of the Night
United States
I am a general writer and artist with a flare for the written word in the realm of romanticism. I submit things as I get the ideas in my mind; usually they are based off emotions or problems I'm thinking through. Some are merely dreams, others challanges by friends. I do love working by request.

Sometiems I will put up scan ins of my other art, or a digital piece but rarely as the written word is more my forte and outlet for the world. Sometimes I will post up snap shot enterances into my head, such as The Burning Fields or Welcome back to the Theatre. Other times it is poetry or even a short story.

Current Residence: Earth
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Favourite genre of music: Classical
Favourite photographer: Guiderelli
Favourite style of art: Digital Fantasy
Operating System: Windows
Favourite cartoon character: Raven (TT)
Personal Quote: Magic is the ability to make the impossible possible.
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Hello Da....

It has been awhile since I've journalled. Today, though, I need write. Because today I found out that my mother's cancer, which we thought was gone, has showed up again in another part of her body. Generally, this means that it has gone through the lymphatic system or the blood. Neither are good news. Her surgery is set most likely for ten days from now... Success rate unknown because ovarian cancer has not been known to move to the urinary system.

I do not live near my parents. I am in the middle of some of the hardest summer courses I have ever taken; there are no breaks, a huge amount of material, and required daily labs because its graduate school courses. However, there is also the chance that I will lose my mother to cancer. She would like me to come back. I would like to go back. But I also know that if I do, I will put myself in a dangerous position with catching up. I've been in tears trying to figure out how to do what I need to do.

I am scared. I am afraid of what will happen to my family if my mother dies. I am afraid of losing her. The thought of it is overwhelming. I know it will shatter my dad. He loves her to the ends of the earth. I know my older brother, who is currently out of the country, will not be able to come back if there is a funeral, and he won't know what to do. I worry for my younger brother who is about to experience a third round with watching one of the adults in our household go through cancer, chemo, and surgery.

So I am trying to smile. Trying to find some... well... something to brighten up my day. So I'm trying to find what I'm thankful for, looking for things which are coming that are good. It doesn't take away the pain... but so far, I think it's helping. I'm not crying anymore... and that's always a good thing.
  • Mood: Pain
  • Listening to: Rise- Skilley
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Plague
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing

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Sakura2349 Featured By Owner 1 hour ago
I finally got that coffee....pumpkin ^.^....the only good thing about fall hahaha....(for me anyway)
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Sakura2349 Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2013
Happy Birthday!!!
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Sakura2349 Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2013
Hey :) your almost all old and shit hahaha jk...but happy almost birthday...love and miss you sis... Hope you are having a great time :)
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IPhantomSilver Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2013
Thanks sis. :rose: I miss you and I hope all is going well for you. Take care of yourself and I'll see you soon.
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Sakura2349 Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2013
I am so ready for break...this semester is dragging me along painfully haha...I miss talking to you...sorry things have been so crazy...I have every intention of it...I get on Skype...and then something comes up...
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IPhantomSilver Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2013
I hear you when it comes to this semester being painful and crazy. Things here have flown a loop when it comes to work. So much to do and so little time to get it done in.
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SARAYA-PFEIFFER Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you very much for the +fav !! :) (Smile) 
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yulile Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fav C:
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Pajunen Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the fav!
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Sakura2349 Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2013
miss you sis
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