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I can'tHow can I turn my back on you?
If I took your hand,
I would pull you up.
Alone we stand
As broken as we are,
These tears will scar.
Sing something new
I have nothing left
And I know I can't fight the dark without you.
I understand you have nothing left,
I have felt the same way
And I know you were the one to save me.
I am not afraid to step down
And save you before you tumble off the cliff
In this fog of confusion.
I have nothing left to lose
There is no way out
Because this life will never end.
I didn't know that I would become this.
All I have, I left behind
For one last chance at life.
I won't turn my back on you;
If you fall then I will too.
I will try to save what's left of you.
Help MeSilent screams
Cannot reach your ears
And so far away
You cannot hear my cries
Won't stop raining
And no word's comfort
Is enough to help calm
I am begging you
Please reach for
My hands outstretched
Stop me from falling
I am so afraid
Of the dark I once loved
Keep my dreaming safe
I don't want to die
Panicking within night's grip
In that world
I don't know who I am
Or if you are safe .
Please show me
That you are alive
That we are well
That I am not asleep any longer
Because my mind no longer knows
What is real or false.
DisappearCurled up behind the stage, in the wings just out of sight, I am catatonic. My body will not move, my mind will not shut down. It is as though I have been injected with the strongest paralysis known to man; one that twists the body to freeze while the mind is thrown into overdrive. God only knows what will happen now.
I just want to disappear. Between the black blue curtain and the wall no one can see me. But in the mirror that rests forgotten on the wall, I can see myself. Electric green eyes, dilated to a near obsidian, are ringed by purple exhaustion as they stare back. My form is thinner, lighter than is natural beneath my dance warm ups so that they hang off slender shoulders and narrow hips. My hair lies loose and wispy down my back, longer than I have ever worn it in my past; it frames a pale face. Haunted is the only fitting description for what I see.
Suddenly, my eyes register something lunging through the darkness. With a snap black metal bands bite onto my wrists, dragging
Cracking TogetherThe cracks are starting slowly,
But they have been growing deeper
Like fissures of destructive fire
Searing away any hope of a normal life for a marionette.
The pain is growing stronger,
Digging away at flesh and bone,
Pulling already fragile pieces apart
Until there is nothing left to the doll.
Alice's madness is slowly returning,
And this Ace of Hearts is turning black.
Wonderland is falling apart petal by petal
But turning back means being eaten alive by the past.
The finish of the game will be worth it,
It must be the focus if anyone is to win here.
There isn't long now; its getting harder,
And that guarantees the end is near.
So as the wood splinters to pieces,
As the mind retreats within itself,
Remember that its almost over,
The impossible is possible together
if we don't crack together first.
Two Sets of TearsTears of a lover
Beg for your prayer
Screaming silent inside
On this hellish night there.
It is not a story
Of evil beaten by good,
But of night cheating light
And taking all they could.
From the stitches in her heart
deep fissures now crack
as she prays for God
to give her love back.
Can you hear her
As she keens so quietly alone?
Praying for some one anyone
As she texts the news on her phone?
Sets down the shining screen
As tears slip forth
Knowing what this means.
If anything now
She is needed more than ever
But she went too far out
To help with that endeavor.
Two lovers cry tonight,
But each a different kind.
One crying for her true love,
The other for a friend of mind.
They Called Him InsanityOh hello! Come in, come in. It's been such a very long time since I've had visitors. I'm sorry, I'm a bit tied up or else I would welcome you properly. A pen and paper? Curious, curious. You aren't one of them. That is certain. So let's see and yes. You are that writer. Who told me? No one did. I just know. I know everything. Yep. Even about your little chats with Misery and them. You even got the illustrious Shadow to appear. Wooo, aren't you special. So now I guess you want my story.
Story? Oh yes. A story. Tell me the story. You know it already. You don't? Then I will have to tell it to you.
Once upon time there was a prince who lived happily ever after because he gained nothing. He had a pretty little wife who became his girlfriend. But she came back to him one day and then he was all alone. In his love, he went to the black in men who broke his heart to make it whole. The price lost his head to gain his body. He was crowned the jester a short decade later. The dec
Peeling Away the SkinPeeling Away the Skin
The mirror beneath my feet is entirely still as I trace a slow pattern over its unyielding surface. The girl on the otherside stares back with sharp eyes, her head cocking as I make no movement to get up. As my fingers begin to scratch at raised bites, her hand catches my own to yank me harshly beneath the surface. "What are you doing?" she asks cooly.
"Leave me alone." I try to shake her off; I don't want to listen. I just want to be alone and sort out what happened. I want to have my head back. Her words are spikes that bite into my flesh, even for their joyful tone. "You're already going to be and you won't even know it happened until you wake up if you wake up."
Blazing green dragons pierce my soul as her nails bite my wrist. With a snap of her fingers, the water begins to swirl and then we are standing on nothing more than a surface of darkness, illuminated by a narrow beam. Slowly the hospital begins to form, its white cracked walls and fluo
How to Survive TogetherHow to Survive Anything
1. Trust Each Other; Don't Leave.
There is strength in numbers. A divided house is weak; knowing that you can count on the people around you gives a power that doesn't exist alone. Learn to read subtle signs, keep the bonds strong and show you will do as you say.
2. Keep Close
Distance matters against enemies. Never let them separate you. Be aware that emotional division can be just as powerful as physical. Its not always easy; sometimes it can't be done to be right next to them and everyone needs space. But if you are close and trust each other, it won't matter.
3. Love No Matter What
Remember somethings are out of control. Do not hold grudges; bury the past . Love is being willing to give up everything for someone else regardless of cost. If you can have this, then there is little that you won't be able to do to protect the one who means the world.
4. Understand Priority
Sometimes you have to accept that others will come
Cyanide SwingIt was a cyanide swing,
sticks and stones made to break bones,
and a spilling of guts meant for love.
A sweeter sin than sacrificing
for a love that didn't want to be loved;
hanging her by the neck before an audience.
Tremors from treasonous words
tickled her throat like a razor,
kissing away the pain with fresh agony.
Common sense cut herself,
bruises of a broken heart littering her neck;
she choked it down to be thrown up against the wall.
Failure found fresh purchase as
poison infected infested wounds;
it promised fate worse than death for the soul.
Don't mind the shadows
They're just stitching her shallow cuts
And confining her to the coffin of affection again.
He should be the corpse,
She could be the killer .
Or he could be the devil and she could be a sinner.
This is their cyanide swing
a backbreaking chorus of love
so insane that when their done she'll break.
Sing me lullabiesI miss the lullaby
your heart used to sing to me,
lying my head on your chest
listening to your heartbeat
as I fall asleep
was music to my ears.
And not even the louder
thunder of this rain of pain
that's where my soul
used to be for so long,
not even that could wake me up.
(I thought my soul and my heart
could actually get along
but they never seem to work things out)
Can you live with a feeling heart
and have no soul?
because I've never felt
I missed it
it's like you had always been
my missing soul.
(So I guess that's why
my soul isn't coming back
not unless you leave
but no, darling
don't ever leave
you're so much better
singing me lullabies
as I try to sleep...)
Never Say GoodbyeKiss me again
Say it was pretend
Lift me up when I'm down
Take away my ever present frown
Dry all my tears
Take away my fears
Make me believe
You'll never leave
Say that you'll try
To never say goodbye
Never Letting GoHe was always alone.
Always putting on a pained smile,
Always twiddling his thumbs,
Always straying from the group.
He barely spoke,
He barely laughed,
Until she came along.
With her, he smiled,
She barely spoke,
She barely laughed,
She barely lived.
Without her, he smiled,
Without her, he began anew,
With her, he was happy,
Feel OkayI've become infected
It's eating me away like acid
I'm left with this
This excuse for a body..this
My bones are becoming thin
I've lost any strength from within
I can't go out with a friend
The life I'm living is pretend..
I can't go to school
Because this disease is so cruel
I can't live a normal life
And I grow tired of this constant strife
The pain is sometimes unbearable
Honestly, it's quite terrible
Not even medicine can heal
How exactly I feel..
My insides start to ache
Testing how much more I can take
If I will go insane
Just because of the pain
Or the fact that I will never be the same
This disease is to blame
My stomach refuses to agree with me
This is how I will forever be..
Some days I lay in bed
Wondering if there's any good ahead
If it's even worth trying
Even if I know I'm not dying
I don't know if I can be cured
Though, I am self-assured
I know one day
I will feel okay..
untitledyou were the kind of person that everybody knew
but never remembered.
not quite normal, but still forgettable (just like that story you told me).
the one found walking alone in the middle of a crowd,
who strayed from the illuminated path
only to stumble in darkness.
(your eyes never adjusted).
HappinessI walk around with a fake smile on my face.
Hoping that someone will notice that the smile i show is'nt true.
My friends don't seem to notice the hopelessness in eyes,
and i put up a wall so my family doesn't notice the dried tears and the strained sound in my voice as i speak to them.
But there's one person who does notice.
She's the one i turn too when i'm in need of help.
She's the one who listens.
She's the one that knows the real me.
She's the one that makes me feel like everything does'nt matter as long as I'm with her.
She help's me remember how great it is to live.
She make's the happiness show on my face again.
She the one i care for the most out of everthing else in the world.
The fake smile that used to show on my face is gone.
Maybe i love this girl.
Maybe i don't.
But she's the one who make's me smile, and that's all i need to know.
Where ever this girl goes, I will follow.
Her smile is my smile.
My smile is her smile.
The smile for the one who I care dearly for.
I think i
Can't reach backPay me no mind, I'll just rest and die,
life can't rewind so why should I try?
I set my life in stone, engraved forever,
permanently alone and no hope to get better,
No change of weather, can't weather the storm,
this torrent's been raging since the day I was born,
endlessly misinformed from the start to today,
with a broken heartless hole replaced by pain,
Nothing to gain, with everything to lose,
mental state collapsing due to years of abuse,
left so confused and alone it seems like forever
I've been a man turned to stone due to the weather,
Pay me no mind please turn your eye,
don't waste your time just let me die,
I'm sorry to disappoint you, but all your effort's wasted,
I'm too lost and confused due to so much hatred,
You try to reach out, I couldn't hope to reach back,
I freaked out before and I'm sure to relapse,
while time elapses I'm trapped in my head again,
my reactions have gone passive 'cause of how long it's been,
I see your hand right in front of my face,
offering to gu
What Is There LeftWhat is there
Left to do
In this world
When you leave
The one you love
When you cannot
See or talk to
Them for hours or days
There is nothing left
But to sit out in the rain;
Let the world consume you
Let the world cry for you
Let it be a shoulder
To cry on
Let it take away
All that sorrow
So you can feel better
It is all you
Have left in this
Cold, sad world
You're Almost ThereTake a deep breath.
You just entered the darkness.
Light will soon shine on you.
Don't look back at the past.
Look forward to the future.
It may seem hard at first,
But it will get better.
Don't hold on to the regrets you've made.
You are human after all.
Life is too short to start worrying about little things.
They will eventually come to you,
So don't stress about it.
You're halfway there.
You just have a little bit more to go.
You're mistakes are coming up,
So get ready to learn.
You start to see all of the bad things you have done,
And all of the people you have hurt because of it.
You're just about to turn away from your mistakes,
But decide not to because they'll eventually come back to you,
So why not face them now.
You start realizing what your mistakes had caused
And make a note to apologize even if it might be too late.
You've just entered the part where there's all red dripping down.
This is where you have hid your pain and hurt from the world.
You start to slow down here ev
The VanishingIf I were to open my eyes
Would you still be there in the morning?
When I turn to glance at the clock
Will your form disappear into the past?
I feel like your vanishing before my eyes
Fading away into the shadows
And I can't reach out to save you,
I can't even see you anymore.
I just wanted to tell you I'm sorry.
Have I lost my sight or have you lost your substance?
You mean so much to me
But I can feel you slipping through my fingers like sand.
You are the first warmth I have found in a long time,
I want you to linger with me here
And I want to live the impossible dream
But you seem to be just that; a fantasy.
When I turn my back to work,
Will you become a shadow of a monster?
When I wake up early from a nightmare,
Will you be there to comfort me or are you part of the dream?
I don't want a handsome prince;
just a friend I can share my life with.
Can I trust you not to be
Just another of my dark memories?
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